Pondering......

  I have never been one to worry physical appearance much. I mean I wanna match and stuff but I am not the type who puts on make up everyday and dresses up everyday with gorgeous styled hair. I am a jeans and a tshirt kinda gal with a ponytail every day but Sundays to church. Even Church has been seeing more and more pony tails since my bald spot has been getting bigger. I am seriously pondering full on almost shave. I wanna be able to treat this THING before it take all of my hair permanently. I know it will be a HUGE change but I think it will be worth it. I mean my grandmother lost her hair when she was battling cancer and she just wore a turbine. I have just decided I am gonna save my money and try to buy some super cute scarves and head bands to make my head feel not so naked. I would rather not ware a wig for the fact that it is not me.... And I am kinda like a 3 year old...its itchy its to tight....it feels weird. Ya Im sensitive that way.
    The only concern I do have is the look of this alopecia kinda looks like when my husband gets a bad case of poison ivy and the puss pockets burst and dry up and it clumps all the hair up. I also don't want to scare the kids at school either. I am hoping cutting it off a month and a half before school starts will give it time to grow back a little, give me time to get comfortable in my new hair or lack there of, and also try to get this THING under control.