The BIOPSY

Well the day came I was going to the Dermatologist. I took my mom with me because in my eyes she is a medical expert. She knew how to get the real questions answered and I knew in order to prove to my self that my doctor was COMPLETELY off his rocker in this diagnosis my mother could do it. Besides things like this don't happen to ME!
       The doctor walks in looks at my head and says "ooo you do have some kind of scarring alopecia." Wait what?! Its just a "thing" but if I have to have Alopecia its SCARRING too! Scarring= permanent ugly SCARS like the ones on my knees from when I was a kid. WAIT WHAT! All I wanted to tell him was umm excuse me you must have the wrong person I dont get stuff like this.
The dermatologist then proceeded to tell me we would take a biopsy as soon as his nurse got back.  HUH Biopsy= a chunk of  removed....FROM MY HEAD!!! I didnt even have time to mentally prepare! You see the bad thing about "City Doctors" they do things on a much faster pace. But I had no idea it was this fast!! He sat me down on a tiny stool and numbed my scalp and began to cut away my hair!!! YES just met this man 3 minutes ago and he is already cutting my hair!!I felt almost violated like our patient doctor relationship was moving a bit to fast. I mean could he not bring me a coke and some chocolate make me feel atleast a LITTLE better before cutting my hair and slicing my head open?   After cutting my hair he as my mom put it "he took a cookie cutter thing to you head and just pressed down then out came some scalp!" Great mental image from that one right! The doctor starts giving me stitches and decides to tell me it should be only one MAYBE two stitches. Yea ended up being four and he said "I couldnt get it all the way closed so be careful but you can wash your hair normally." I don't know about other women but when I was my hair I scrub my scalp with my finger tips. How am I supposed to do that with a gaping hole in my head? UHHHGGG I was just gonna have to figure it out and decided to tell my self that he probably didn't know what he was talking about either and I would get the biopsy report back a WA-LA  it will be just dry weird skin and the doctor will say here is some special shampoo and Ill be on my way. 

When in doubt ......DOWN PLAY!

6 years ago I found a "weird' spot on my head while I was pregnant with my son. I never went to the doctor for it thinking it was just dry skin or just my scapls weird reaction to waring my hair in a ponytail all the time. I did go in to the doctor once and he told me to put neosporin on it because it just looked like a leason on my scalp.  Over the years it got bigger and bigger and soon I got to embarrassed to even go and get my hair cut. A year and a half has come and gone and I knew it was time to either get my hair cut or go back to the doctor. Well the day came I was going in to see the doctor for a check up anyways so I might as well metion the spot on my head. ( in my brain I was trying to minimize the annoying "thing" on my head as much as possible.) The doctor came in and did his thing and when he went to go look at my head he says "ooh wow you do have some hair loss here don't ya" In my head all I could thing was "No No you cant say that its a small "thing" that will be gone in jiffy" The doctor gave me the devastating news that I may have Alopecia Areata and he was sending me to a dermatologist  because he really wasnt sure.
Now you have to under stand that I am from a small town. Most of the time to get better medical care we drive an hour and a half east. It isnt that the doctors arent great out here it is just in the "City" they have better/newer equipment easier access to all the fancy tests and things.  I had a month till I saw the Dermatologist in the City so for a month Google and I had a love hate relationship. You know what I mean. I am the type of person that is a doctor says he thinks I have something I am going to go home ware out my keyboard and google what he said to try to educate myself. I googled Alopecia Areata TERRIFIED ME! So in my brain I kept thinking noooo he is a small town doctor he only said  he thought that is what I had. He is probably totally off base with this one of course mean while I was still googling and scaring my self to no end.

This Is ME.

   My name is Lorna I live in a small town in Oklahoma with my Husband and two kids. Connor my son is 6 and Zoie my daughter is 7. I am a stay at home mom but during the school year I love substitue teaching at the local schools.
     I am writing this blog as a public diary in hopes while dealing with my own struggle with Scarring Alopecia Folliculitis Decalvans someone else will also find hope. If you have any questions or comments I am always available. I am a very open and honest person.