Life Lesson VIA Candy Crush

Today I have been thinking...... scary I know. Candy Crush has taught me a life lesson yall! Yes I mean the game Candy Crush. Before you judge here me out.
The other day I was playing this highly additive game in the waiting room at the doctors office. I was on a level that I had been trying to beat for a good week. I was trying to get two stripe candies together. I had one blue strip at the very bottom of the screen so all I needed to do was create another strip and bring it down ... easy enough right...WRONG!! While most of my moves were spent trying to get one strip down to the other strip I took a breath and looked at the other parts of the screen and realized there was two spots I could make striped candies  and they would actually fall side by side. The only problem was I only had 2 moves left.
        Now I know your wondering how this applies to life. Ill tell ya! Sometimes in life we have such a focus either on what we want or our a problem that, we have that we miss blessings set in our path. I can even imagine how many of Gods blessings I have missed because I was so focused on what I wanted or because I felt inferior or I was depressed because I let the Alopecia consume my thinking.
      I know we cant exactly shut our brain off. As a mom I really wish God would have equipped us with one! But we CAN force ourselves to focus on the positives and the smaller blessing in our lives. Be still in our situation and know God has our back no matter what. And just maybe we can see the big picture in Gods plan. We can see that we are so focused on balancing on the curb of the path that God has for us we didnt even notice that there was a whole sidewallk there to easily walk on. We dont even have to struggle to balance anymore!
      I have struggled a lot with the feeling of being inferior and depression for years even before I discovered I had Alopecia. God did not make me to feel this way.  2Timothy 1:7 says For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.  If I can push the devil out just a little bit harder and pull God in closer maybe the feelings of the world and seeds of the devil wont be as prosperous.

Have a great week.

Day 2 Day

Well Hello again. The past few weeks I have been working on just living with less hair and this "Thing" on my head. The flesh eating treatment lasted less than a week and just made things worse so I did decided to try the antibiotic. Not happy with that but still trying it. So Far nothing.....  I have had to actually fix my hair when I go somewhere which makes me feel more self confident. Another thing is with my hair as short as it is I don't have to take as long in the shower. The other night just after getting out of the shower my husband says "OO you didnnt have to rush honey" to which I replied " Umm I thought I took my time but also I just have less hair to wash and condition." Speaking of showering it is VERY hard to get used to one pump of the shampoo and not 15 pumps ... I mean really! My shampoo will last SO much longer now!!

I think I have mentioned in recent posts I help with a middle school ministry. Well shortly before I found out about this "thing" on my head I felt the calling to do a hair donation with them. I was very upset after I found out I had to cut my hair before our donation. I hesitated even still doing the donation with the girls after I had to cut my hair but I really felt like we should do it.
Last night was our donation night and I had 5 girls who were seriously going for it. Yes there were nerves and anxiety but I had 3 do it!!! The other two didnt like where their hair would be after it would be cut so they decided to  wait till Christmas. Still I am so proud of all of these girls. Keep in mind the oldest girl will be a freshman in high school she is just about to be 15 and the youngest will be a 7th grader. This is a time when their whole world revolves around appearances. I am so inspired by these girls. If they are making these types of selfless decisions now their God has got a bright future in store for them! I am BLESSED to even know them.
I cant explain the feeling in knowing God is working in me and threw me threw this disease. I am still praying for healing but I also pray to be Gods true hands and feet. I dont want anything that I am doing to point to me but to HIM and non of it be be me or my idea but him and his idea. I have folded my cards I realize nor I or the doctors are in control.